bitterness and denial

discovry and realization is the first stage of a breakup. discovery of the unfaithfulness is like a BOLUS fast IV push of penicilin...like splash of ice cold fucking water...and an incision without anesthesia..to discover is to swallow all your dreams for the two of you. then denial would come next..apathetic on all the events. seems nothing happened. the feelings are so heavy that you think your gonna be somatized. i cant breath and speak. but after it, the tears would flood the room. endless tears and blaming. rationalization of what he did and such but then you'd realize with the comfort of your friends that reality bites but you deserve better. stupidity is the common ilnes of intelligent people.....